Thursday, July 15, 2010
Lets begin with the thought of a Thankful heart.... Yesterday I discovered my ex fiance's photo of he and his new bride. OUCH, that's right.. His new bride. I had no idea he had gotten married. I would have thoughts of "I wonder".... but now knowing has shed a new light on this heart of mine. Many months ago I felt the Lord impress upon me the answer isn't no but new..............Okay... But Lord, what does that mean.... You will restore Mark and I and we will be new in Christ TOGETHER!
So this morning I'm focusing on the truth that the answer was in fact NO to Mark and Holly.
This morning I can rest in the fact that God loves me so very very much that he has something better in mind for this short life of mine! Something ABUNDANTLY GOOD.
I'm here for this moment for HIS PURPOSE. Not my own. I am surrounded by an amazing care group, amazing church family, amazing family and friends.
2Corinthians 9:15 Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift!
This morning I choose to look at this life of mine as an amazing gift. I'm thanking the Lord for not giving me "WHAT I DESERVE" but granting me "GRACE" "FORGIVENESS" "MERCY"........................even in that. I'M BLESSED BY GOD. He is creating a heart of Christ in me to use in his great plan.
That excites me. That over rides any hurt I may feel from a "human loss".....
I can look back on the past and learn. Learn how to love others the way Christ would have me love them. Not self seeking but being patient and kind.
I like what it says in 1 Corinthians 13 4-8.
A portion says I bear up under anything and everything that comes, and I am ever ready to believe the best of every person. My hopes are fadeless under ALL CIRCUMSTANCES, and I endure everything without WEAKENING. God's love in me never fails.
I realize this morning that Holly is different. Its not about Holly and I know that I can do ALL THINGS in Christ. For his purpose and not my own!
Today! I can honestly say. I'M THANKFUL that God loves me enough to protect me and guide me to his way and not my own. He saw what was ahead and around the curve when I couldn't.
HOW AMAZING IS HIS LOVE?