Tuesday, January 31, 2017

When we grow weary of doing or being good

Where do I begin!  It's been over two years since I have tried to sit down and write out my thoughts or speak about the things of God.  Seems I took a huge detour in life and took a path with many ditches and pebbles that stone bruised not only the feet but heart.  I believe that God loves us so deeply that he wants to protect us from pain and sorrow.  His Holy Spirit was sent here to warn us of the sharp curve coming our way that we just can't see yet on the highway of life.  Yet we still choose to act as if we know the right path.  Even if we've never been in this territory before.   Then we want to cry out in anger and rage when things go crazy or not what we had dreamed it would be?   How crazy is that?  It's like a child being angry that they didn't listen to their parents and chose to disobey them suffering a huge consequence of their own choice!  The parents loved them enough to say no.  Loved them enough to try and show them a different path and yet they chose their own way.  Isn't that just like you and I at times?
Today I cried out to God in anger.   Why God. Why should I do good or be good.  What has it served me.  People still hurt you and don't care that you give of yourself. 
Yet this is what he says:
Never tire of doing what is right. 2 Thessalonians 3:13
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
I close this day ashamed and repentful .  Was Jesus angry at his Father when he hung on the cross for my sin😓
NO.  he cried out Father. Forgive them.   For they know not what they do.  
So I go to bed this evening crying out Father. Forgive me for my sin and selfish heart. Forgive me for when I hold others accountable and yet release myself from judgement. You are a good and Holy God. Help me to obey and honor your word and remember the words written about your Son. My savior that took my place of judgement that I so deserve.
Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. Hebrews 12:3
Help me love even when I'm not loved in return. Help me give more even when others don't give. Help me serve. Even when I feel slighted.  Help me see Christ and his will. NOT MY OWN. 
In Jesus name I pray.  Amen and amen.  
In Christ,

Friday, February 27, 2015

Matthew 7:14
For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.

It has been way to long since I've sat and written about God in my life.  It is sad that all to often the business of life distracts us to the point of trying to live without our most important road map (the living word of God).

This has led me on a dead end trip.  The road I've been driving down took an extreme exit down a bumpy gravel road.  It is a road most traveled!  I have to ask myself - Why is that?

Why would we exit from a solid path.  A known path with good direction - good road signs - good lighting?
Once we strike out on the wide gravel road, we have no direction, no road signs - no light.

Praise God he sends messengers our way.
Dear Saints of God that love us enough to walk right out in front of us with huge STOP signs that help us regain our direction.

Today I want to thank God for those amazing Sisters I have in Christ that loved me enough to share the truth written above.

My prayer today is that I always follow the narrow path - EVEN WHEN IT GETS HARD..........
I desire to be one of the few!

In Christ,

Friday, July 25, 2014

Doing the Right Thing!

Doing the right thing!


Proverbs 2:7-9 (NASB) "He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; He is a shield to those who walk in integrity, guarding the paths of justice, and He preserves the way of His godly ones. Then you will discern righteousness and justice and equity and every good course."

Doing the right thing should be easy.  We have a guide.  A map quest.  A Counselor.

But all too often we venture away from our guide/map (THE WORD) and our Counselor (Jesus) don’t we?  So often we go to people and other sources before we consider the one true source for direction and wisdom.

I know that I have heard God speak loudly only to walk in the ways of man and listen to them when I knew what God had spoken to me was different.  Just because God leads me in a different direction that what the body of Christ sees as a good direction, doesn’t mean that I haven’t heard God. 

When Paul heard and listened most people thought he was crazy to stay and preach the gospel knowing full well that it would lead to the shedding of his own blood.  But he chose to listen to the Lord.

Today I pray that God continues to speak to my heart – even if it’s a still small voice and that I will learn to listen and lean consistently….. Not only in times of trouble, hurt, confusion or pain.

Thank you Lord for drawing back to your spirit and loving me even when I make mistakes and take your love for granted.

Friday, January 11, 2013

LEAD ME LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“When hard pressed, I cried to the LORD; he brought me into a spacious place. The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?” Psalm 118:5-6

Calling all ladies....   :)
How many of you ladies out there have struggled in the same area as I have.
Here is my struggle:
I have a huge heart issue.  I am in a spiritual battle not knowing if my heart is guided by the Holy Spirit or by Holly.  I need answers!  I need guidance!  I need WISDOM OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!
Soooo... Here is what I do.  CALLING ALL GIRLFRIENDS..... Help me.  Tell me what to do.
What do you think?  If it were you, what would you do?  All of these questions and TALK!
After I have exhausted all options that I can think of - then and only then - I have a faithful friend that says:
Holly - have you fasted and prayed?
Oh my.  What a blow to my spirit.  NO.... No.... not at all.  Why haven't I?  Why would I leave the God of the universe.  The God who is the beginning and the end out of my heart issue.
The God that sent his only Son to save me while I was STILL A SINNER!
He loves me so very much that he will supply all my needs.  He cares about every detail of my life.

Today I choose his way.  Father God, help me to cry out to you first!  Help me to seek your face, your word, your will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Confusion is not of you!  Doubt is not of you!  Fear is not of you!

Loving you with all of my heart and asking for forgiveness of my pride to think I can handle things without YOU!

In Jesus name I pray,

Thursday, January 3, 2013


MATTHEW 6:33 NKJ 33 "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

I have been struggling in my life with DECISIONS.... What to do with my life! I can get consumed with THINKING!
HOW am I going to pay this?
HOW am I going to handle that?
HOW will I reflect Christ with my life?

This morning the most important thing I CAN THINK ON is seeking GOD.
When I don't have the answers.... SEEK GOD
When I'm in doubt? SEEK GOD
When I don't have peace? Hmmmmmm SEEK GOD

God has a plan that is perfect. Isn't it wonderful to know that when we seek him and his kingdom purpose first. WE WILL HAVE PERFECT PEACE. We still may not have the answer to our current questions or concerns...

BUT WE CAN HAVE PEACE AND KNOW THAT IN TRUSTING HIM AND HIS WORD... He will send the answers we need. Today... join me as I seek his righteousness and allow GOD TO ADD ALL THINGS TO ME. After all.... I would rather have his plan that what I think I want any day.....

God Bless,

Holly :)

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

WOW.... it has been over a year since my last post.... I can't believe I have been away that long! Revelation 2:2-4 (NIV) "I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love." This scripture tugged at my heart strings this morning! Have I lost my first love? This is a good question. I have felt lately very frustrated in my spirit. grumbly almost! Is that the spirit of the Lord or the world? Hmmmm.... Maybe its time to run back to my first love. The pure love of Christ. This Christmas season I want others to see a reflection of CHRIST in me.. Not a reflection of "imperfect Holly".... I know this time of year can get very hectic and busy with the TO DO LIST - I hope and pray that it never gets to busy to focus on Christ and the reason for this Christmas season in the first place. May we not get so busy do good works that we forget to sit at his feet and just remember to worship him and be thankful for his amazing grace. Hugs, Holly

Friday, October 7, 2011

What if?

This song touches my heart and just felt like posting the words:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Courtesy of lyricshall.com
'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

Praying that each of us learn to trust in the Lord in the bad times just as well
as we do in the good.