Thursday, October 15, 2009

Letting Go and Letting God!

Letting Go and Letting God

** picture taken on my Alpha retreat**

The good Lord knew I would reflect back on this photo and

have an image of his beauty and peace that he has brought to my life!

I'm sure many of you have been where I am at. When God has brought you to a place

of knowing that you control NOTHING in your life. PERIOD.

This is such a hard place and yet a wonderful place once you finally figure out that

by letting go.................God can finally do something on your behalf!

WHAT PEACE that surpasses all understanding.

To be at the place where I can finally believe the following words of the Lord:

2nd Corinthians 12:9

My grace is sufficient for you.. for my power is made perfect in WEAKNESS..

Isaiah 43:19

For I am about to do something new, See, I have already begun! Do you not see!

Habakkuh 1:5

For I am doing something in your own day. Something you wouldn't believe even if someone told you about it.

1 Peter 5:6

So humble yourself under the might power of God and at the right time - he will lift you up to honor.

When you can say with all honesty and humility: Lord I have a problem - and its ME!

To finally come to the realization that you must be more concerned with your character than your reputation. For our character is what we really are and our reputation is merely what others think we are! WHAT TRUTH!

I know that there must be many woman that need healing in their hearts.

I want to share my testimony in hopes that it may help someone else see how great is our God!

My journey began when I was 10 years old. Thats when I first met the Lord. I was a church bus ministry child. My parents did not attend church yet. Once I got saved they started attending and became christians as well.

I got married at the age of 18 to my High School sweetheart. We had two children together and I thought - had a white picket fence life.

Our marriage lasted 22 years. The last 5 of those years were very very hard. Sin came in to our marriage through adultry,lies, anger, bitterness.......................I think every sin possible was committed toward one another, all while attending church. Blame goes to both sides of that fence.

We eventually divorced and went our seperate ways. What a devastating effect this had on our family and is still affecting them today!

God finally brought the man of my dreams into my life and my heart was still so strong willed and stubborn from my past that I ended up not realizing what a treasure the Lord had blessed me with. My stubborn rebellion caused my relation to end. I do believe that God used this tragedy in order to bring me to the place of COMPLETE AND UTTER BROKENESS.

I can honestly picture myself as the woman drying her tears from Jesus' feet with her hair! I have thrown myself at the feet of JESUS for sure. Praise God he has held out his arms and just loved me. He loved me enough to allow me to be broken. Now he can mold me into his image. HOW GREAT IS THAT. Now I can become a daughter of Sarah. My heart can become CHRIST LIKE. Only when I realize my desperate need for the Lord each and every day of my life is when he can actually speak into my heart and direct my path!

I know that there are woman out there hurting. God desires all to be whole.

He wants to give us the desires of our heart.... It all begins when we first begin to
desire his ways and his perfect will.....................................

Romans 5:4 More than that. We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that our sufferings produce endurance, and endurance produces character and character produces hope and hope does not put to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given us. For while we were still weak, Christ died for the ungodly.

A work in progress!!!!!!!!!!!!! and thanking God for it.........................................


  1. What a great post! Me too, a work in progress :-) Many blessings to you!

  2. AWESOME what God is doing in you!!
    He is our "potter" we are the His clay....Let His "refiner's fire burn".....
    Luv ya and praying!


  3. Oh Holly,

    It looks like you found this amazing world of blogging. Girl, I have held you almost litterally before the throne. You broken heart has broken mine.

    So much is in your future. I know the pain seems unbarable but there is something planned. Cling to Christ. I know you are. I love you girl. Hugs.