Learning to Stand and lean at the same time?

One of the hardest lessons I have had to learn is how to stand in faith? Trusting that God
has his best for me at all times.

When I went through a divorce 5 years ago I couldn't see how any of that horrible nightmare
could have any good in it whatsoever. How could my family falling apart be good? How
could my children hurting be good?
How could such an angry person (ME) ever soften her heart ever again?

Looking back on the past 5 years I still have memories that try and haunt me. BUT - I now
realize that many of the hard times I've experienced in this life of mine have been due to
my lack of faith and yes - usually disobedience to GOD'S WAY. I believe the word of God when
he says " He will always provide a way of escape"...... There is always that way - but the choice
is ours to walk through his door or continue on our own path of destruction.

The difference in my today trials you may ask? Oh my - the difference is the trust that I have in my
Savior. I now can say with assurity that my trust lies only in Christ Jesus as my Savior. There is nothing
I can do on my own to gain his love any more than what I did in the past could cause him to NOT LOVE ME!

I'm learning 1 Corinthians 2:5 - that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
and also learning James 1:3 - to be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience.

Hebrews 11:1 - Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen..... Now I have had to struggle with this one. Making my faith BE THAT SUBSTANCE in place of the things hoped for. Knowing that my faith is in God....... Knowing that he is working ALL THINGS TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD!

I had a dear sweet friend in my life continually tell me that if we know that we know that God is for us and has only good intentions toward us, has and wants only his best for us - how can we not rest in that and have peace! I so agree with them today.

Before I struggled thinking - how can you have peace when your heart is broken? How can you have peace when you have a disease that threatens to take your life or a family members life? How can you have peace when you have no job and can't see one in sight? This is when I have learned to LEAN.....................

That is how I stand! I stand in faith because of the strong arm of my Lord... He calls me to come to him - those who are heavy laden and need rest! Then we can know as Colossians 2:5 states = For though I am absent in the flesh, yet I am with you in spirit ( HE IS WITH ME) rejoicing to see your good order and the steadfastness of your faith in Christ. That keeps me STANDING.. .Standing on his word, his promises and trusting that he is leading and guiding me each and every day. I only have THIS DAY!

So for today.... I will stand as I lean upon my Holy Lord and my prayer is that my life is pleasing to him for today and that I can say with confidence as Galatians 2:20 says... I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by Faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. No longer the old Holly -
I can wake each morning (Lord willing) and grant him total control and authority over my life *****BY FAITH!!!!! :)